I sing using glossolalia, I have been ‘speaking in tongues’ since I was a little girl. After researching some about it recently, as I have never before had the presence of mind to go into any serious analysis of the phenomena, I have found some interesting things. I want to share my thoughts about it with the online community.
In my experience, glossolalia is pretty much the same as tapping into any creative flow. Artists, musicians, scientists, innovators will most likely agree that, when we have a moment of epiphany it is normally completely spontaneous and often wondered how it even occurred. For me, music or glossolalia comes from exactly the same expressive space. My music is highly improvised, as is my singing in tongues, it all happens automatically. The more relaxed I am the more organic or inspired the result is. This theory can really be applied to anything I feel, for instance the simple acts of walking, breathing, feeling, all are more or less intuitive and inspired depending on your own personal intention or vision at the time. I argue that any intention is preceded by a vision, the ability to engage in anything comes about through a dreamlike preview which then engenders engagement with a reality we gauge according to our experience of life. For me life is extremely varied and is not wholly concrete in terms of so-called “awake reality” or the tactile knowledge we have developed through our human condition. I believe that not unlike the idea of the “matrix” our reality is determined by our willingness to see beyond material conditioning , to question ‘reality” and fearlessly align ourselves with the humbling notion that our own perceptions cannot be the only reality. Hence our international recognition of awe-inspiring expression, in various forms, artistic and scientific, spiritual, people gifted with excellent faculties of expression open our own personally ascribed limitations of acceptable expression to new heights inspiring in us the sensation of awe in what can be possible. Glossolalia for me is a means by which I express the wonder of life, without a specific meaning, speaking in tongues is the inspiration that engages with me when I am open, just as music flows through me unmeasurable in its manner of arriving, a kind of empty clear space where the harmony evolves, expressed through my voice and/or the playing of my harp.
Now, I am myself on a spiritual path, Sufism. There is often a kind of tug in me to expound upon my experience of coming to faith especially in light of the huge reaction to religious thought which is currently at large in the world today. However, I strongly feel that reaction of any kind is completely useless, and I do not wish that manner in which i arrived at said “faith” might be used to further create useless argument of ‘you think you know, but I know better jargon” or more seriously to help inflate those egos who want more reason to believe that “they are in the right way” and others are not. God forbid the inflation of ” better than thou” syndrome which is so incredibly bereft of the most important principles prophets and saints have expressed for millenia, which is the obvious point that we have no idea what is in the hearts of other people. If you believe however that the inspiration you are finding in which ever gift you have been given is somehow gently unfolding of its own accord and could assist mankind to treat other’s reverently and equally, all power to you! Of course peace must only be possible by way of unharried sincere and absolute servitude and selflessness. Would that we might approach any faith with complete and utter dissemination of any ego, because with ego you falsely think you are coming closer to belief when in fact it is only fuel for your ego to use in it’s endless tirade of superiority.
So in my estimation of my expression of vocal sound, using the terms speaking in tongues, or glossolalia, I do not want to attach myself to any metaphysical possibilities by way of my faith without making the disclaimer that; in absolute brutally honest terms I have no idea of what is or isn’t in absolute certainty, as far as I know my expression is entirely useless above and beyond it’s potential in help me realize my own personal inadequacies and possible capacities. The literature that surrounds speaking in tongues which I do not find “unnatural, or phenomena related” talks a great deal of mysticism or the occult. Which leads me to my reasoning that anything in the world is inanimate until we engage with it, giving it breath and meaning for our “own existence”. I hope you follow; I am not speaking about the natural world and it’s obvious life, no, I am speaking about the individual experience and our personal engagement with our environments. So, given that anything or everything can be engaged with and given meaning, anything could or could not be used for some occult purpose, or religious purpose and purported thereafter as of religious or occult value. That being said, glossolalia is the same in my mind and that does not mean that I believe that the value of any given object or act having been engaged with for spiritual practice or otherwise is somehow without any life force other than the superfluous “idea” of the person who engaged with it. No, I truly believe that the engagement of the human being with anything can literally give life to an object or act which may transport the human being or the object or act to a new level of expression. As everything in the world is given names, attributes, components, by way of the human faculties of discernment, so these objects may also come alive in their own right and become either detrimental or positive depending on the intention made. So that leads me to the fact that yes… when I sing in tongues I have the personal intention of entering into prayer, and I do believe that that intention is part and parcel of the manner in which I live life in general, not just compose music. The vision of the out pouring expression is so powerful as to assume a dream life-like quality which proceeds the act itself. It is said in my tradition that the act’s of an evil person are not nearly as evil as those which she/he dreams, or only threatens, and the acts of a good intentioned person are not nearly as good as those which he/she dreams or intends through vocal expression. At least this is how I have understood it.
Again, so yes, when I sing it is inspired by the intention of prayerful thought, or my mind reaching up to the endlessness and out to the beyond nothingness and finding peace. One self appointed spiritual teacher did say that it was Faery language, and in all honesty, sure why not? I mean I believe in faeries, how can there not be elemental beings if we have microcosm’s within macrosms’ which are perceptible to our limited human perception, why not have multi layered existence?
When all else fails you realize that the point in case is that if harmony exist’s and it speaks a language it must be the language of inspiration and realized being, and if any language could exist it would most likely be one that most do not reasonably and rationally express and understand. So then, let us say that that language moves through us and teaches us in all faculties, without any real identifiable attributes, more of a kind of wind “muse” …. true, noble and good, healing and penetrating our collective memory and expression.